Do kadam aur sahi..!!

Sliding over the side of the bed with no-mood-for-sleep eyes staring at the clock, which is about to strike 12 midnight, I was listening to my Mozart, who can bring out bliss for me even in a war field. There are few of his songs which just inspires me in every possible ways and one such is “Do Kadam aur sahi” from Meenaxi movie. (I have no idea of how and when this comes in the movie, nevertheless only few movies had met the expectations his songs creates.)

There comes a point in life where everything is strange and different and only a single hope of “Things will get better” drives us forward. So we just move few steps forward with the same hope, and again a few more steps and finally we may actually live the best life possible. And the song exactly inspires the same way saying,

Go two more steps.. Just two more steps..

Where the dreams are fulfilled..

Where the hearts melt..

Let's go there, that place is not too far..

As I was staring at the clock , so unwilling to sleep, my idle mind asked myself few questions “Who are you? What do you actually want? Where are you going? Where does your road lead to?”. A cynical pessimist inside me laughed at me saying” You are stupid and You lead nowhere”. I ignored that though its true to some extent. And a voice inside me said, “ Hey You are a daughter ”. “No.No. You are a sister.”, added another voice. “You are a daughter in law” ,“Hey You are a friend” ,“Hey there, You are an employee.”, echoed other voices. Confusingly, I continued to stare at the clock, suddenly a mild voice, deep down from my heart was echoing “ You are me.. You are me.. ” As I started to listen to it even more keenly, wondering why I did not hear this till now, the voice got more clearer and louder. And for a moment, I closed my eyes and tried to block all the other voices from my head. Soon the voice of my heart got louder and louder. Once again I asked the same question. “Who are you?”, this time to my heart. And it replied,

“My Dearie! I am you. You are me. I have been here all along with you and will be here with you forever. I am who you are. I am your real 'You'. No matter how much you are labeled and ruled by other voices and masks of your life, there is always a real 'You' which you tend not to give importance. Being surrounded by louder voices of other, only few listen to their own and I am glad that you did. Life is a play and everyone has few important roles to play. Sometimes a daughter or a son. Sometimes a mother or a father. The roles change many times but as a person 'You' remain the same. And the 'You' is 'Me', your heart. Unfortunately, only few listen to the actual voice of them and others live their whole life in their masks itself. For those cynics and pessimists, who says, “ So what, I identify myself as that roles and I dont have the need or time to think about myself. I dont want to complicate life. I am happy otherwise.”, here is my answer, “ Stay ignorant. You will never experience the happiness of living for your souls. Its as simple as that.”

There are only two ways of living a life. Live on your OWN or Live by everyone else. And people who live on their own, listen to their heart, follow their heart with determination and perseverance and passion. People who live by everyone else will seek for conformity and find security in conformity. Anything unique and different even in a good way, will not be welcomed by them. Anything out of their conformity will scare them to death sometimes. There are few true souls on earth, who walked the land we live, followed their heart till the last breath. Its tough. Its hell at times. Its a thorny and hard path. Its a way where stones are thrown at you at times. Its a path that is less traveled. And as Robert Frost mentioned. “That was all the difference”. A soft, well brought up lawyer, a so called common man's determination to live for his heart had made him the Father of the Nation. It was not a easy path for Mahatma Gandhi till the very end . Two values, 'Truth' and 'Non violence' defined the real Mahatma. And even now after many years, he is remembered for the same. And this is what one achieves by living for oneself. There are some values which define us, and we believe in them strongly. We have to follow that no matter how much hard it is. In her younger age, when all her friends and girls around her, got married, one girl, Muthulakshmi Reddy, broke the tradition and went on to complete her studies and became house surgeon and initiated measures to improve the medical facilities given to slum dwellers.Living for yourself and letting your heart decide, its a feeling beyond words of explanation. The only explanation can be taken will be from your life and how well you have lived it.

Listen Dearie! I always wish for your goodness and wellbeing only. I follow the path of love and there is no place for hatred in me. Any hard feelings will be an imposition by your mind and outer world. Now from hereon, I wish you to trust yourself and follow your heart even if the whole world is against you. Trust yourself, that you will not hurt anyone even unknowingly. Given 80% percent of your life to others and if living even 20% for yourself is considered wrong, let it be and let you be wrong. It is always better to get a bad name and live a good life than to get a good name and live a bad life. Give time for yourself. Let be gone are the days of your ignorant way of living. Dont give up. Dont expect people to support you every time, Dont try to make everyone happy. Dont expect people to be happy with you every time. Dont expect people to be good to you because you are to them. Dont expect people to understand you when they dont even understand themselves. Only you are in your control.

As your much inspiring leader said, “Be the change you want to see in the world. First they ignore you, then they ridicule you, then they fight you, and then you win.” Dont succumb yourself to the conformity. Stand up for what I, your heart say, even if you are alone. Kindle your passion for the same. Choose your battles wisely. Do not let the fire go out. Its simply and beautifully said in the movie “Shawshank redemption - Get busy living or get busy dying". Life can feel like a prison with invisible bars holding you back and dreaming of the time you’re released. It’s your Shawshank and you don’t even know you’re in it. With the same unimaginable willpower of Andy, you can make out of it. In your life, you may have a dream that you want to pursue but there’s people there to tell you how ridiculous it sounds and how you need to face reality. Those people are your warden. They are plain evil. It’s worse when it’s someone close to you. So ignore them and just keep digging. As long as you’re always digging, you are making progress. The other alternative is to sit on the cold metal bed and do nothing. Which is better? When you’re trying to work towards your goals, you will want to give up. It’s bound to happen. No one ever said success is smooth sailing. How you deal with that determines your fate. Do you move on or do you go back to your cell and keep dreaming about freedom? The road to success isn’t like a Slip-n-slide. There will be crap to crawl through which seems like it will never end. Few will crawl through the crap while many won’t even try. Who do you want to be?Where is your paradise and are you willing to work as hard and as long as him?

Life is not over until you give up. There is always a second chance. There is always light at the end of the tunnel, with just few more steps my Dear. Agreed, that the path is vacant. We were together all along. We have suffered so much together. Just, some more suffering. Go two more steps..Two more steps..                 

                   Dil ka awara diya doosre gaoin mein hain..
               Aao chale hum wahin..
               Do kadam aur sahi!!
               Do kadam aur sahi!!"